Stuck In a Rut

“Thinking about something is like picking up a stone when taking a walk, either while skipping rocks on the beach, for example, or looking for a way to shatter the glass doors of a museum. When you think about something, it adds a bit of weight to your walk, and as you think about more and more things you are liable to feel heavier and heavier, until you are so burdened you cannot take any further steps, and can only sit and stare at the gentle movements of the ocean waves or security guards, thinking too hard about too many things to do anything else.”

It's hard to embrace change, and thinking too much about it doesn't seem to help anything. But life has been quite the trouble recently with the semester coming to an end, and everything just starts to pile up. Times like this just make me want to start all over again, don't we all. There's just too much clutter going on, and I'm finding ways to have a fresh start, except change is somehow a terrifying idea. It's like the dark creepy closet down the hallway you walk past every night, sometimes you wonder what's in it, sometimes you want to run past it and never look back, thinking that when you look back you'll see something you don't want to. But in the end, it's just your mind playing tricks on you. 

I still haven't made up my mind if I should return to the room where I left all my horrible memories. My life feels like it has been going in circles, maybe it's time to go back to the beginning so I can draw a straight line instead.